My husband and I have always taken our marriage vows seriously, including the vow to accept children from the Lord. We practiced Natural Family Planning, and getting pregnant was never a struggle with our first three children. In fact, it seemed that as soon as we mentioned having a baby, I’d be pregnant.
After my third was two years old, I started to desire having another child, but I feared how hard it might be having a larger family. I read the book Walking with Purpose by Lisa Brenninkmeyer in the fall of 2014 and felt a peace in just letting go and trusting the Lord. If He willed us to have more children, it would be a great blessing.
Soon thereafter I was pregnant with my fourth child. This child, however, was lost through an early miscarriage. This was such a devastating time for me. It was a heartbreaking loss, something I didn’t expect to happen, but who expects such a tragedy to occur? I felt empty and lost, and I was missing a child that I had already begun to love.Read More