Our Prayer Journal is an opportunity for Catholic women to share their personal prayers with our community of women. The Prayer Journals are honest and vulnerable, offering a window into the hearts and spirits of other Catholic women. We encourage our readers to pray with our writers in fellowship, compassion, and love. Our first Prayer Journal is by the founder of The Daughters of Mary, Isabel Crawford.
By Isabel Crawford
I often think of our Mother in heaven as the most beautiful woman, with light all around her, her hands folded in prayer, and a peaceful smile across her face. Although this image I have might be accurate, I cannot relate to it as I stare at my own image in the mirror. How can I aspire to look like a statue in a church? I cannot.
I hear my Mother whisper softly into my heart,
“I did not believe the lies. You must not believe the lies.
You are beautiful, the beloved daughter of God, created in His image and destined to do His will, which is goodness itself. You are wrapped and protected by a light you do not see. As the daughter of a King, you are guarded. You were meant and created for communion with God. He desires you.
You can be filled with joy and peace amidst this suffering on the pilgrimage to heaven.”
This truth convicts me and unveils my eyes, and I find myself standing with wounds and a broken heart before my Mother.
What lies have I been listening to all my life? Have I listened to lies about my worth and beauty that have warped me and hurt me? What lies have I believed that have blocked me from the Lord?
Every inch of me pines for the truth, and I crave goodness and beauty because my heart was created by and for God.
“Mary, give me your ears. Replace mine with yours. Help me to discern what are lies and what are truths. Help me to not listen to the lies; turn my ears to the truth of God.
Be my example and model of true womanhood. I do not want to model a statue, but a woman who lived her life perfectly aligned to the mission of daughter, wife, friend, and child of the Father.
Wrapped in truth, I realize that now is the time to be a woman. It is time to be completely and fully woman to the world.”
The world is in desperate need of true femininity. Authentically united with our Mother, with her Immaculate Heart leading us, the time has come. Women in true community with other women are a powerful force to be reckoned with.
Men require the gift of the feminine genius to be the men they are intended to be. The Church needs the love and grace that issue forth like healing rays from the heart of the woman. People today are like lost orphans without a mother; sinning, suffering, and running further away from Jesus. We must, as women, bring ourselves and other souls back to the arms of Mother Mary and to the Church.
In a world of confusion and ambiguity over genders, we as women must ask our Mother, “What is a woman? What does it look like to fully and completely be a woman?” We have forgotten. There is so much noise and so much pressure and so much competition among us.
You must show us, Mother. Show us who we were always created to be from the beginning, and open our eyes to see truth. Save us from the lies of the serpent that hold power over our identity as women. Healed, may we then bring souls to your Immaculate Heart, so you may bring them to your Son.
How do we bring your Immaculate Heart back into such a disordered and broken world?
“Pray and fast. Pray the Rosary and fast.”
Isabel is enjoying the adventure, beauty and challenges of living out her vocation of marriage with her love, Steve, and their four children. She works part time as a school psychologist and helps coordinate The Daughters of Mary women’s ministry. In her free time she enjoys drinking hot coffee (with creamer), reading about five books simultaneously, and taking quiet walks outside.